I've Had ENOUGH!!!

I tend to glaze over my days when I post - but I'm done and at the end of my rope. Here's how I feel today:

1. Drained
2. Frustrated
3. Impatient
4. Sore
5. Overworked
6. Over scheduled
7. Abused
8. Taken advantage of
9. Ignored
10. But yet in the same breath blessed

My kids are driving me crazy - half of it is them physically/mentally and half of it is their schedule.

My #2 child is Dr. Jeckell/Mr. Hyde. He is my most "needy" he always needs my attention, he would actually thrive being an only child. He wants what he wants when he wants it and doesn't agree with anyone. Votes are always 3 to 1 for everything - food, tv shows, games to play, where to go, etc... if you say left, he says right - and he is SO moody and grumpy - it's so draining EVERY DAY when you come downstairs and say "good morning" and 3 are happy and THE ONE is constantly getting up off the wrong side of the bed. But he's polite and sweet when he goes to his friends' houses and the parents all love him - and he can be so so sweet and sharing - the first one to give up his seat, share his food/candy, watch the baby, is okay when we can't do something he wants, he says his prayers and helps us keep the sabbath, loves to read the BofM - so I just don't get it. He pushes my buttons - do I expect too much?

Mike has been gone for 2 weeks straight - which is tough enough when I'm not a cripple so this stint has just been too much for me - at least mentally - I'm so glad he is on his way home. The potty training for Lucas isn't going great - he goes on cue, but only on cue in the toilet - otherwise if you don't catch him - it's time for a new pull-up, and I just don't have the mobility to let him run around butt nake'd or in underwear because I can't bend well for clean up.

#3 is testing my limits - he is my child that is too smart for his own good and he doesn't listen to me - you can tell he is brilliant because HE CANNOT CLEAN UP after himself - so he better become a bazillionaire so he can hire someone to wipe his ...nose - ha ha He can make his bed beautifully but cannot pick up his socks, or his plates - that one burns me the most!

#1 has actually been very helpful - it's more of her crazy schedule that is just beginning that is driving me batty. I feel like I'm alienating my friends because I'm making them carpool with me :) - she has dance 3 X week and we go back and forth all the time.

To top it off - I'm getting my mystery headaches or rather "episodes" back - I had to see a neurologist because I have these weird head spasms, I have vertigo and my neck hurts - my MRI says my brain is "perfect" but obviously something is amiss - but when I was working out it was better - but now that my best friend is a crutch and a brace - I'm not getting much cardio - I need the pheromones! I'm even trying to reduce my 1/day can of my beloved Diet Coke to see if it will help.

But I do have to count my blessing - we have so very much and we have good health - I have a husband that loves me and kids I truly wouldn't trade in for the world so I have to learn to work through the rough spots but sometimes I have enough!

Sorry for the moan and groan session but thanks for reading - your blogs help me through the day - School starts in another 13 days? But what busy days we have coming up!